I have felt this overwhelming urge to write for a little while now. I felt like some words needed to escape my heart and brain. That I needed to get them on paper. So many thoughts.. but just sharing a little with you this morning. I have really set writing on the back burner. If you scroll down you will see I haven't even had an entry since last summer. I have been blogging a little different lately in the way of my sketches. They sure have been such a refreshing way to start the day. A new day, a new truth. I believe God gifts you with various talents and abilities so that you can in turn share them with others for his glory. God opened the door of "painting for others" about 18 months ago and it has just been such a blessing. I continue to learn and grow as I go. I have met SO many awesome individuals and its has been such a joy to connect with them through art-especially those grieving.
Some doors in our lives don't seem to open, or God asks us to close one in order to open another. So many WHY GOD questions. BUT- we have to remember that we do not see the big picture. We just see the now. This can be so frustrating at times. Doors are scary. The unknown frightening. BUT- it can mean a new adventure as well!
Our health struggle with our son has been very frustrating to me and my family. I just want answers and someone to finally help him. It has been hard- yes I am very thankful that he is not critical, that he is a wild rambunctious four year old in between his sickness flairs, but this door that we have been journeying though for about 9 months now has been stressful. Many low points. A lot of questions. A lot of medical appointments. Today, I got a call that his genetic fever panel came back negative- no mutations. Still puzzled. Still so many questions. God why can't you make him better. Let him just outgrow this please.
Heading home today God whispered to me TRUST. So that is what I will have to do- trust and continue to follow him. Remember today that our Heavenly Father, the one that created you and me, sees the whole picture. He knows how the final masterpiece is going to turn out. He sees the finished picture. HE knows what tomorrow holds and we don't. Continue following him today- letting him lead you to doors in the season/life stage you find yourself in currently.
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. Psalms 56:3
Now faith is reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is not seen. Hebrews 11:1
In GOD I trust, I will not fear. What can man do to me? Psalms 56:11
Much love and many blessings,
Taylor