As I sit here at the kitchen table, I am looking up at two babies napping in their little lamb seats. One on my right and one on my left. Little coos and smiley dreams... oh be still my heart! I was told this morning I look absolutely happy and exhausted. I think I am both. I'm happy because I still cannot believe these two little angel babies are here and I get to be their mother. I am happy because I have seen a whole new side to my husband as he takes on his new role of being a Dad. The way he kisses them and changes their diapers just makes me smile. He was even caught rocking Wade and reading him "If You Give a Pig a Pancake" the other night.
I am also happy because I have seen pure joy and a new love in the hearts of our parents- Greg, Lu and Jana as they have become grandparents. I think the word proud doesn't even begin to describe what they feel. That makes me happy.
I am also happy that our birth mother is doing well and is keeping in contact with us. Her strength as she is healing makes me so happy.
I am mostly happy because God our father hears us. He hears every prayer and every cry from the people that love him and profess that he is the true God almighty. He heard us when we drove home from the OB office after getting the news that Chase couldn't father a child. What oh Lord are we going to do?? This was not in OUR PLANS!!!! He heard me when I was crying on the way home from the fertility clinic driving back home after a failed cycle. He heard us when we cried out to him that we desperately wanted to be parents.. and that we were praying for that special child and the special birth mother that would pick us. He heard our birth mother when she felt abandoned and lost .. but still said no to abortion! He heard me as I would walk into their nursery almost every day and say a little prayer as they were forming in the womb. And he heard our babies cries October 29, 2014 at 7:58 and 7:59 when they entered this world!!!!!!!!
I love the Lord, for he heard my voice, he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. Psalm 116:1-2
He hears us. And that makes me happy.
We have chosen joy instead of bitterness or anger. At the time our cries seemed not heard and unanswered. It is tempting to question God or assume his love for us has to do with US. Have we not done enough to make God love us and show favor on us? Oh No.. his love for you and me is the same today as it was yesterday and as it will be tomorrow! He desires a relationship with us and loves to hear our prayers.. whether they are cries to God or simple whispers in the quiet of the night. Our story has deepened our faith more than we have ever imagined. Just because he hears our prayers does not mean he will answer them right away.. or that he will answer in the way we would like. But lets face it, the way he answers them are so much more wonderful and creative! Just take our little babies red hair!! God totally threw that in there! Love it!!
Psalms 66:19-20 but God has surely listened and has heard my prayer. Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!!
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About usChase and I met in 2006 and married in 2010. We have been celebrating the joy in the journey since day one. Through job losses to infertility to the unexpected death of Taylor's father we are pointing back to the cross and celebrating his grace and mercy. Blessed with adoptive twins we live a simple life in Northwest Ga. Archives
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