I started a count down board in my kitchen as the weeks are ticking by. In a way, it seems like time is going by fast, but in a way it seems like forever. 18 MORE WEEKS! I've kept myself busy by starting a children's book collection, checking out baby gear for our registry, slowing getting the nursery pieces together, really working hard on financial discipline- since you know.... two.. uh.. not for the price of one.. for for the price of TWO! Also, I have been finding myself mindlessly lingering in stores, going for a run after work, or just plain lying down for a nap on the weekends whenever and thinking.. ok Taylor, take advantage of this because you won't be able to do this much longer!
Today, we are going to the doctor to check on the babies. Chase has not gotten to go to any of the visits and he is going to be able to make it to this one. :) Yesterday, we received a letter in the mail from our attorney. He has made official contact with the potential birth father and has sent potential dad papers to sign. Please please pray he will surrender his rights before babies are born. This will avoid potentially having to go to court, run a 30 day ad in the paper, etc.
Man, this journey has been a whirlwind.. but dang... gotta be honest... this is THE hardest part. Emotionally for me- In less than five months- there is a strong possibility that we could be parents- after so long of trying on your own it seems still impossible at times. Because we have been wired so long for let down after let down in regards to starting a family. Officially in the WAIT IT OUT stage.
Are you in a time of waiting? Waiting to find that job, waiting to start a new journey in life- engaged to be married and waiting for that special day two will become one? Waiting to find the spouse God has hand picked for you? Waiting for the time you will have a family? Waiting through medical treatments to bring relief from pain or healing? Or waiting for adoption placement like us.. remember don't loose focus!! Let God use you in this time of waiting. I'll let these verses do the talking...
Isaiah 40:31 But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Psalm 27:13-14 I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!
Isaiah 30:18 Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.
Taylor