There are just so many hours in the day right? I had someone tell me... there are plenty of hours in the day you just have to use your time wisely to get it all done. HA. Maybe that person could write a book to let everyone know their secret to getting it all done. My head is constantly spinning these days with everything that I need to get done.. grocery lists, to do lists, work stuff, painting stuff, kid stuff, bill stuff etc. Some days personal hygiene is lower on the list than others am I right moms? Thank goodness for dry shampoo and ball caps :) I enjoy having a clean house and sometimes I enjoy the actual cleaning part but, it does tend to get pushed aside on those extra busy days. A family friend this weekend asked me how I do it. I said how I do what? She said- how you get it all done. I laughed and told her have you seen my house? It’s a disaster. In fact, we left that evening to go to the lake and I knew I would return home at the end of the weekend to a messy house that needed tending to... dishes in the sink, clothes in the dryer, and sticky counter tops. Even if I could spend hours a day cleaning, the little people in the house don’t really help in that area. Cue my son who went and licked the glass door after I had cleaned the glass, or my daughter who dipped her finger in her cereal and decided to finger paint the counter tops after I had just sprayed the counter with my granite cleaner (just this morning). We have been renovating our bathroom. I say we. WE are not. Thank goodness. We have people doing it, but its been a slow process. 2.5 months already infact. So, I have been shaving my legs in the downstairs half bath and sharing a bathroom with my girl Ellie. Getting ready for the bathroom demo, I just kinda threw all the bathroom stuff into my closet and its been kinda that way since then.. except more hoarderish now. You cant even walk into it right now. When I want to get a shirt off the hanger I have just been leaning over to grab one because I can’t even walk in there its so junky. LOL I posted on my stories today. Thanks for the ones brave enough to comment they’ve been there too (or theirs looks like that now) hehehe. See below. YIKES I took this picture today as I was busiy picking up the den and kitchen. I think I was throwing more junk into my closet to make the den look good. Something about people coming over. You want to make a good impression and pretend that you have your act together and make them believe you keep your house like this way all the time. I knew I had an 90 minutes so after I fed the kids I cleaned the kitchen, put the laundry up and picked up the den. The den looks a little different than that nasty closet. It hit me this morning. We all can be like that messy closet from time to time. God really spoke to my heart this morning as I was looking at that filthy space. I have been that closet this summer. I have been on break from our small group and we have not really been to church regularly due to being gone a lot. Getting out of routines and habits and with no good accountability, my quiet time has been lacking too. Journaling... um no. Sure, I have wanted everyone to think I have had it all together, that my prayer life was just so awesome... but my heart has just been getting more cluttered. Sure, I may throw a quick prayer up or turn on some worship music through the day, but that ain’t deep cleaning your closet. It’s still a mess. God calls us to a life of relationship with him. His word is an extension of love for us. It is his love letters his beloved. A guide map to how we should live. HIs commands for our life. I personally have not been in the word digging deep for my heart like I should. He says you cannot know me deeper if you do not get in my word. Spending time with him and confessing all that junk in your life is how you can rid yourself of that pain, fear, doubts, worry, anxiety and those sins that you are carrying around in your little space. Maybe others cant see that but you know its there. And it bothers you. You want to get it cleaned up. I sure needed that reminder today. I personally needed to confess somethings going on in my life. I needed to take the focus off myself today and put it back on Christ. Sure, things will creep back into that closet. That is the beauty of an ongoing relationship with Christ. It’s not a one and done thing. Life gets messy from time to time. Some days you may need to spend a little more time on that relationship because what you have goin on is just real messy. You cannot do it all.. but Christ can. Search me God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. Psalm 139 Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Hebrews 10 If we confess your sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and PURIFY us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1 Loved having this on my heart today. Reminded myself that I physically cant do it all and that is ok. That my gifts and talents are from nothing I have done, but have been blessed with. That I need to use them for HIS glory. That I need to spend a little more time loving on and encouraging my ginger babies instead of yelling at them for milk finger painting on the counter. Happy Thursday friends. Cue the Eminem Cleaning out my closet song. JK PEACE OUT!!! | |
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Anna Devlin
7/27/2018 04:24:52 am
Love your heart and honesty!!
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About usChase and I met in 2006 and married in 2010. We have been celebrating the joy in the journey since day one. Through job losses to infertility to the unexpected death of Taylor's father we are pointing back to the cross and celebrating his grace and mercy. Blessed with adoptive twins we live a simple life in Northwest Ga. Archives
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