Well it's been a while since I've blogged. With two babies who don't nap at the same time usually.. It's been hard to sit down and write. But I have wanted to. It's just.... words have escaped me. Writing does not come natural to me, I have to get inspired to write a post. I've been ready to write and have been journaling for the Lord to reveal something to me so I can write.. But lately I haven't gotten anything. But.. I right now there's two babies swinging quietly with their eyes closed so here we go!
As the new year has approached, Chase and I have been making an effort to look at this year differently than any other year. We have been trying to choose joy and peace in all things. That's hard for someone who always needs a plan or a constant routine. We joke how routine we are. These days, we have fallen into a new night routine which consists of making bottles, getting diapers, lotions, powder and pjs ready and set out on the nursery floor. I bathe one, Chase does the other. We pop on Rock-A-Bye Pandora station and the frog humidifier, zip up in sleep sacks then kiss goodnight at 8:00. Side note, I have discovered this pandora station it's awesome!! Classic rock to pop songs in soothing lullabye form.. It's hilarious to hear Chase singing "sweet child of mine" or "Hotel California" as he is washing a baby. Of course, they both love it.
Through our journey, God has been constantly trying to teach me to trust in all things. That his plan is way better than any of mine. Well in this new year, He's really stamped on my heart to trust him with our finances. That true financial peace can happen. It's kind of ironic that he picked this area to trust him during a time when it seemed like we've had more bills then ever.. From Hospital bills to heating system and everywhere in between. It came all at once!
Why would he pick our finances as the area to solely trust him when our financial burdens seemed at record highs?
Because he is God and is bigger than anything we can fathom.
His peace has never left me. Right now Im doing a part time trial at my job. Not sure what is going to happen after the trial period. So I'm working less hours and not totally sure what the outcome is going to be. Freak out or staying cool???
Chase and I are choosing to trust in the one who is bigger and who holds our story.. Our hope and peace. God has told me to honor him and he will take care of the rest.
As I think about our almost 4 month olds, they are not able to stress or worry if their needs are going to be met. All they know to do is cry out to the one who provides. They don't think to themselves.. I wonder if I'm going to be fed 2 or 5oz.. A room temp bottle or a nice warm bottle? No. They just eat up and smile with thanks.
So let's take a lesson from these babies. Cry out to God. He knows your needs. Press into him and he will send you little reminders along the way of his provision if you are willing to let him. And.. Don't sweat the small stuff! Cuz in the long run.. It ain't worth it!
I think this verse just sums it up completly:
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13 NIV)
What's your area that you find overwhelming? Can you cry it out to The Lord and soley trust him 100% that he's got it?
I sure am enjoying 2 days a week with the babies. Some days we are really productive. Others, we just stay in our pjs and sing and talk and snuggle. People keep telling me that having two must be a handful or that they don't know how they would do it. I'm no super mom and some days when I have a fussy baby are hard. We haven't even hit the full blown teething stage yet :o But I constantly look at these babies and think to myself.. How did I get so lucky to be their mom? Precious gifts!!! Both great babies!!! Each day they seem to learn something new and Chase and I are always learning something from them.
Here's a little winter sun bathing, johnny jump up action and a milk goatee. Have a great week!
Ps .. We are on "operation walk before Catherine's November wedding". I am putting them on a program and training starts tomorrow lol ;)
Wade says "let's do this!"
Much love,
Taylor